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I Love My “Blackness”

If you have not seen this special on CNN. I strongly encourage you to do so.

Tonight’s episode will be “BLACK IN AMERICA–The Black Man”. I’m eager to see how they potray the plight of the black male.

Yesterday’s episode was very interesting. I especially loved the coverage of the “Smith Family”, they showed the general public that a strong, successful, educated family is NOT just a pipe dream created for Heathcliff & Claire Huxtable. This dynamic couple had six children and all of them were either college graduates or undergrads. The parents have been married 20+ years, have a successful business, and are faithfully involved in their church.

I found this so inspiring because normally the black family is dogged out! “Baby Mama”/”Baby Daddy” drama. But seeing that black love does thrive and can be successful, made me hold my head up even higher.

I was browsing CNN.com for more goodies about last night’s show and found these two articles that touched me.

“Against all odds: School Offers Hope, Opportunity For Young Men”

“Black and Single: Is marriage Really For White People?”

Let me know your thoughts/opinions on these articles.

the business of randomness

First off, Ralph Tresvant’s song “Sensitivity”… how did I forget how great this song is?! I’m on lunch right now listening to the “ole school at noon” radio mix…LOVES IT.

Secondly, I don’t know who told me that it was cool to be hanging out all night past twelve for the last three days. I’m acting like I don’t have a job or something!! I was up late last night goofing off, painting my nails, and talking on the phone. Now I’m tired as all hell because I’m a loser! Whomp.

I will be in bed at a decent hour tonight!!! No MySpace. No Flickr. No porn sites! (Lol… I kid, I kid). Straight to bed! Do not pass GO. Do not collect $200.

My birthday is next Sunday…shibby!! (Plenty o’ time for you all to purchase my gifts, yes plural). The sucky part about my upcoming day is that I have no plans. See, I told you I was lame.

Well initially I had a birthday dinner date and plans thereafter with someone, but I’ve recently, kinda sorta kicked that fool to the curb so I’ll be celebrating with myself, but I’m not sure what I should do.

Any suggestions for this single gal in the city trying to celebrate?
Hit me up.

QOTD:

When dating or getting to know someone, how slow is too slow?

Is there such a thing?

Snuggle Wuggle

For some reason, I don’t want to lay in bed alone tonight.

I feel like cuddling.

Where is a good [non-snoring] cuddle buddy when you need it?

Bleh.

Evaluation

In 15 days, I will be 27 years old. *sigh* Where has the time gone? Didn’t I just graduate High School?, and where did my College years go? All those things seem like a blur.

This year has been a period of growth and transition for me, both mentally and spiritually.

When I sit back and think about all the things I’ve been through, I have to give all the credit to God for guiding me through this journey because these last 350 days have been a bumpy ride.

I’ve learned so much about myself, and when I ponder over what I’ve been through this past year it brings tears to my eyes. Some tears are good because life is about learning and growing, and taking lessons with you along the way.

I will say that the biggest lesson I learned is that I’m NOT alone out here, and I need to always remember that.

I won’t front, I have my moments where I feel overwhelmed; I feel as though the weight of the entire world is on my shoulders and I have to bear the burdens of everyone. There are days where I want to cry and runaway from my problems, but I can’t do that because my parents didn’t raise a coward, and my son depends on me. His bright eyes are what drives me to do the best I can, and be the best at all times.

I thank the heavens everyday for my family! They’re the ones who keep me grounded and make me realize that if it hadn’t been for them holding me down, I would probably be in an insane asylum right now.

I learned how immensely blessed I am, that God does truly forgive a multitude of sins, and that its not an impossible feat to cultivate a true relationship with him.

This year I also learned that good things come to those who wait. When it was just me I could purchase a plane ticket, and go visit friends anywhere in the United States, because I had zero obligations. The day Braylon was born everything changed, but that didn’t mean my life had to become a drag. Life taught me that although I can’t jump and do everything that my heart desires at the drop of a hat, it doesn’t mean that I can’t have a fulfilled and enjoyable life. Never in a million years did I think I’d be able to set sail to the Caribbean, but I’ll be there soon enough.

Life smacked me in the face and showed me that I’m not beyond asking for help; I really need to abandon my overly prideful tendencies and just shut the hell up sometimes and accept assistance. Eat a huge freakin’ slice of humble pie a’ la mode.

I learned that I have a lot more patience than I thought because most people would be wildin’ out when their toddler throws a Hot Wheel car at their head while driving 70 mph on I-35.

I learned that I’m an amazing woman, with a lot of great qualities, who is worthy of being loved by someone who is into me 110%, not that half-assed crap I’ve been accepting because I didn’t want to come off as a bitch. Forget that, I’m focused on finding someone who makes me truly happy, and who’s not all about getting pussy. POINT.BLANK.PERIOD.

I got my heartbroken this year (one of the triggers to the teary eyes) and when I think about the hoops I jumped through to get him to “love” me, I feel like a punk ass idiot!!, but you do silly things when you’re infatuated with someone. I learned so much from what “that guy” did to me, and I’m doing my best to dump that baggage. I don’t want to make the next guy pay for what someone else did, or didn’t do to me. I pray to God all the time that he will grant me the wisdom and maturity to weed out the good from the not so good, and that I’ll have the ability to be open, honest, and trusting in the future. I’m trying really hard to not have a wall up 24/7, but it’s difficult because I’m scared of letting my guard down this time around, only to have my heart stomped on again, but they say love is a gamble, so I guess its time for me to woman up.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about my life, my goals, past mistakes, and cycles that I don’t want to repeat. I feel so focused right now, I don’t know what has come over me, but I feel great.

I’m finally at the point in life where I’m coming into my own. I’m not worried about what everyone and their mama thinks about me, I’m just focused on getting myself together, and being the best Mom and woman that I truly can be.

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This video just made me laugh and smile.
I swear I love a man who is silly and can have fun.
The semi-seriousness of this video, made it even funnier.Gotta love it.